2010 has to have been the most eventful of my life. It’s challenging enough having a second child, particularly when the older isn’t yet 3, but when you spend your early pregnancy fighting for your marriage (and often just fighting), your late pregnancy dealing with the realities of living
I’m not going to talk about the how and why of the breakdown of my marriage. I wanted to fight for it, David didn’t. It is certainly the right thing for us to be apart now, and we are learning to parent together, but much of this last year has been hard. I had never really been on my own and I didn’t know I had the strength to do it, especially with 2 little ones, but I found it and I AM coping. I’m not alone, David is still there to help with a lot of it and I have some amazing friends, but now I am the one ultimately responsible for my kids.
I have come through so much, but now I am doing ok. Not perfect, not always good enough, but I am truly muddling through and I know what I have to work on, and that is what the next year is going to be about, and I have big plans for it!