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Sleep, naps, crawling, standing, cruising.

  • Posted on November 6, 2008 at 9:34 pm

Lately, Rowan’s night sleep has really improved. He’s been averaging 2 night feeds for quite a while, so after considering night weaning him, I decided to instead make use of an idea from Dr Jay Gordon and give myself a period of time at night where I can get a decent run of sleep, and Rowan doesn’t have milk. We decided to make this easier with a 10pm ‘dream feed’ (although he does wake a little most nights he just goes straight back to sleep). He then gets nothing but Daddy (except in case of illness) until 4am, when he can have me again and some more milk. This means that I’ve been regularly getting runs of 5 or 6 hours of sleep (I’m still waking earlier sometimes but it seems to be improving), which makes a huge difference to me.

Another improvement is in his settling. He goes down at bedtime awake more often (and even sometimes during the night – at 4am or whatever) and settles himself. Sometimes there’s a minute or two of crying, but its pretty half hearted. Tonight, due to some strangely timed naps, he wasn’t ready for bed at his normal 6pm (he was eating dinner then) and had a later bath. After his feed, some books and some Daddy time, he still wasn’t settling, so David put him in his cot, put his mobile on and left him. The crying stopped well before the mobile, and over the monitor over the next 15 minutes we heard a bit of burbling and some other happy noises, and an hour later he’s still quiet so most likely asleep! This self settling (and particularly the happy burbling) bodes well for the future!

Nap wise, we’ve managed to drop the very annoying habit of not sleeping without my nipple in his mouth (I’ve managed to unlatch / put him down gently much more lately). However, he doesn’t seem to want to nap until 11am/lunchtime, which is making a second nap late and/or difficult. Late nap means we don’t know when he’ll be tired, and no nap means a stupidly early bed. I try not to worry about it, but nap times can mess up meal times, and an overtired baby is really hard work.

Physically, Rowan’s coming on in leaps and bounds. He was crawling properly by around 8 months, and since then he’s not really stopped. A couple of weeks later he was standing, then cruising, and last week he learnt to sit from standing! This last was a huge relief as he was standing for ages, then screaming as he couldn’t get down! We’re some way off walking, but the cruising is going well, and you can see from the way he stands that he’s getting stronger, so my guess is that he’ll be really mobile by Xmas or thereabouts.

This weekend Rowan’s going to Gregynog to interview some students, or perhaps sabotage their bamboo catapaults. Sleep will be, in my estimation, limited!

Why am I not using formula?

  • Posted on October 13, 2008 at 6:55 pm

Of the 7 babies from our ante-natal group, Rowan is the only one who has not had (and never will have) any formula. I am expressing (as little as possible) to cover my days at work (8.30-3.30ish twice a week) although Rowan will actually go most days with very little milk, I like to send some in case he wants it. Now we’re starting what we hope will be the process of night weaning. We’re starting by David settling Rowan without a feed, or offering him a bottle of expressed breast milk (EBM) during certain hours of the night. This will help us work out whether Rowan is genuinely hungry (in which case he’ll take the bottle) or, as seems to be the case so far, if he can be settled without the milk.

A friend asked me why I was expressing rather than using formula. Pretty much all of Rowans baby friends now get formula during the night so that feeds can be shared, and mums can go back to work, as I am. My answer was “Why would I?” Why would I give my son the scientifically modified milk of another mammal when for the sake of a few minutes pumping, he can get the milk that is made specifically for him? Why would I spend money and have to boil and cool the formula in the middle of the night when David can just pluck a bottle out of the fridge and run it under the hot tap for a bit?

This is not meant to be a criticism of those who decide to give formula. Many people understand the risks of formula feeding and understand how to prepare their bottles properly (and I think some of those risks will be reduced once the gut is closed – the babies are all on solids anyway). If they’ve made an educated choice I have no issue with it. But I’m taking the route that is closer to what is natural than any other (and if I weren’t working I wouldn’t feel the need to be sleep training him any more than we already have because its only when I try to use my brain that I notice just how tired I am – so I wouldn’t need anyone else to give Rowan milk)

It just seems sad to me that use of formula is so commonplace and accepted, that even people who breastfed successfully for their baby’s first few months, without using formula, start to use it at a time when their babies are naturally starting to reduce how much milk they’re drinking! And sad that I’m the odd one out. Its not an issue of poor support for breastfeeding at this stage, its just the acceptance in our society of what is technically an inferior food for our babies – as a convenience.

And if you know I’m talking about you – either because I really am, or because I could be describing you, I’m not judging you, I’m just finding the whole thing strange. Particularly the fact that I feel the need to point out I’m not judging!

And Goodbye!

  • Posted on October 2, 2008 at 9:54 am

We’re sorry to say that we felt we had to take Meg back to the dogs home yesterday. We were dealing with the weeing and pooing all over the kitchen floor, and the destructive chewing, but when she decided to bite the trousers of a friend of mine, we knew we couldn’t risk having her around Rowan – despite her previous good behaviour in that regard.

So, back she went. This wasn’t as hard as it could have been as we hadn’t really bonded with her yet, but we do feel sorry for her to have had a glimpse of a home then having to go back, but then it wouldn’t have been kind to keep her and feel like we had to shut her away from Rowan or new people all the time.

The internet replaces communities

  • Posted on August 31, 2008 at 9:09 pm

I’m a pretty active member of several online communities – mostly related to mothering, but other technical ones too.  Many of my friends come from these (although those I class as friends I don’t only know online) and a lot of support for parenting and technical issues comes from these places.

One on of these sites we’ve recently been having a discussion about how its a shame that new mothers have to come to strangers on a website to ask for advice and reassurance about perfectly normal (if tiring) newborn behaviour.  Its not the fact that they’re asking – we all happily give the needed advice and reassurance – its that they (we, really) have to wait until we have babies to experience them.

To quote my post:
“Before I had my son, I was good friends with 2 mothers. Most of my friends haven’t had kids, I don’t have that sort of relationship with my mother in law and haven’t spoken to my mother in 7 years. I’m one of these people that wants to know everything, so when I’d read loads of stuff on pregnancy and birth (and I agree pg women are really hung up on birth – its scary!) I started reading baby books. My tiny pool of motherly support was from two different extremes. My sister-in0law had had 2 fairly textbook babies (although I did hear about things like mastitis and colic from her, so was prepared for those as much as I could be) and my friend had a horrendous pregnancy, a difficult Caesarian (scar still infected nearly a year later) and various other medical problems that have made her life really difficult – so I didn’t feel she was representative.

The support from society – parents, extended family, friends, neighbours – that once would have helped to support us mothers through this is pretty much gone. The mothers that didn’t breast feed, and were “taught” to parent in a particular way don’t have the knowledge (I remember SIL’s mum telling me she got told off by MW for BF more often than 4 hourly and during the night) and so can’t offer support to their own children. In most cases our parents / relatives don’t have so many children that we helped bring the younger siblings/cousins/nieces/nephews up, so we’re completely unexperienced with babies!

And nothing has really appeared to replace this. We can’t trust our midwives and health visitors, so we’re stuck with mumsnet. It’s the only place we can express our (possibly irrational) fears and ask our silly questions, knowing we’ll get an honest answer. Its a real shame it’s all we’ve got, but thank god we do (and have people to answer then). I just wish we had a society where we didn’t get to child bearing age with no experience of kids, and where help from relatives was actually help rather than judging under the guise of helpfulness!

Oh I hope I remember this when I am a MIL!”

I guess that says it with regard to babies, but I think the same goes for so much more.  We don’t live as a community any more – and I can’t see society ever becoming like that again – so we’ve lost so much shared knowledge and experience, its worse than a shame. I’m lucky to have had the help I have from David, and from Jenny and her family.  Add to that my antenatal group who have been there every week for us to compare notes, and support groups like the baby bistro (which I am now able to help people at, even in an unofficial capacity until they get more funding for training)

Hopefully by getting my nieces involved with Rowan I’m ensuring that they won’t grow up like that – they’re going to be older than all their cousins, and hopefully heavily involved with them all, so maybe they’ll do better than me – and not be shocked by some of the hard parts of being a mum!

Another “I Want” – the OnBag

  • Posted on August 20, 2008 at 8:13 pm

Oh yes.  After ages trying and failing to find one of my existing bags (really don’t want to spend more money on bags!) that is comfortable with all my slings, I have failed and am constantly changing the nappy bag around.  Most of them are ok into town or whatever, but to walk further – as I often do – is a complete nightmare :-(

To solve this (I would think) I want one of these.  In brown and blue.  Only I can’t justify £65 on it :-(

Another thing for my Xmas list.

I want one! (Kindercoat for winter babywearing)

  • Posted on August 15, 2008 at 8:57 pm

Following some nice sling threads on mumsnet, I’ve spotted these.  Considering recent hassle with rain recently (Little umbrellas don’t protect poor Rowan’s legs!)  I will be getting one when we can afford 100 quid!  I’ll also be shopping around trying to find them cheaper, but it seems they’re mostly stocked in the US and canada…

Getting back on the wagon

  • Posted on August 14, 2008 at 2:48 pm

I’ve been an on-off dieter for the last 12 years (which at 28 is quite scary).  Strangely, each time I’ve gone on a fitness/diet binge, its been less food and more exercise focus.

Anyway, now Rowan is a bit more predictable at night, and is eating more solids (and presumably less milk) we need to think about getting fit again.  I’m already feeling fitter than I was after the birth (and about 6 months of sitting on my arse – I now feel I was a little too worried about overdoing it!) and am almost ready to make a start on something more serious.  I’ve been walking at least a mile every day during the week (pretty much) and regularly do 2-4 miles in a day to get to various things.

I don’t think I’m quite ready for running club yet, but I might just try out the gym at the dolphin centre (local council leisure centre).  It’ll be odd because I’ve never been an evening exerciser, but that’s the only opportunity I’ll get, so I’ll have to take it.

I’ve already ditched my regular biscuit/snack buying habit (although I currently subsituting with cream crackers – just not so many of them) and need to work on that suppertime bowl of ice cream and the chocolate I still like to buy when I’m out and about.  Of course I won’t be giving up everything just yet – I’m still breastfeeding after all – I just want to gradually start getting fitter again, as I felt great when I was running every week!

More abuse for breastfeeding mothers

  • Posted on August 6, 2008 at 6:48 pm

See here

This time it was ignorant teenagers rather than overzealous staff, but still, will they never learn?  What a pity those mcdonalds staff couldn’t call the police on the little bastards.

Goodbye Bob Jangles, You’ll be missed

  • Posted on at 4:27 pm

Today, while doing his favourite thing – running with his master – Mr Bob the dog was hit by a car.  He was taken to the vet by some friendly builders, but unfortunately his back was broken, and we decided that the kindest thing to do would be for him to be put down.

6 month old bob plays on the stairs in our aber house

6 month old bob plays on the stairs in our aber house

Bob was a wonderful, loving dog – despite my constant complaints about the amount of hair he left behind – and he will be sorely missed.  Even Rowan loved Bob, following him around the room with his eyes, and trying to reach him when sitting on the floor – and being distracted by him at dinner time.

Bob starting on that trexy goat that slowly lost its stuffing to become a dirty empty goat shell!

Bob starting on that trexy goat that slowly lost its stuffing to become a dirty empty goat shell!

Even with a loud baby, the house seems strangely empty now.

Routines – the work of the devil?

  • Posted on August 3, 2008 at 11:26 am

So far with Rowan I’ve been a very ‘take it as it comes’ sort of mummy.  I’ve liked the opportunity to take him out and about with me, and he’s napped and fed as he wanted to.  I loved it.

However, over about the last 6 weeks or so, this has been getting more and more unfeasible as he doesn’t pay attention when feeding in public, and, as I am discovering, hasn’t been napping as much as he needs to.

Now don’t get me wrong, I certainly wouldn’t have done the first 4 months with him any differently – I still believe he needed the frequent feeding and the cuddles to get the milk supply sorted / introduce him gently to this scary world – but as I observe my increasingly tired and grumpy baby and get up for the 5th/6th/7th time since I put him to bed, I begin to wish I had introduced a little structure a little earlier.

The catalyst for all of this has been his increasingly fragmented sleeping.  Its killing us all, and as I start to observe Rowans behaviour more closely (watching for sleepiness and overtiredness) I begin to realise that he’s been getting more and more overtired, with crazy shouting and mad hyper bouncing at times.  Before I started paying attention to all this, he was having 2/3 naps a day – but of only around 20 minutes each, which I now realise was nowhere near enough.

This is, I think, rebounding on his eating as I’m finding it hard to know when he is going to be in the right frame of mind to pay attention to his dinner and actually eat something.  We’re baby led weaning, so it requires his active participation, and he needs to be awake and alert for this – which when I try to get him to eat, he seems not to be!

So, we’re trying to change this.  In part I don’t like it as it isn’t what I wanted to do, but I’m not one of these people who makes a decision and sticks to it against anything.  If its not working, we find out what’s wrong and we fix it – even if the change I need to make sticks in my throat.  We will be aiming for 2-3 naps with a duration of at least 2 hours, preferably 3-4, at roughly regular times.  I know we won’t be able to manage this in his (or our) bed all of the time because we both love his activities and for my sanity at least, we’re not giving up all of them, so this will be subject to review once our term-time schedule starts come september.

Its going to be hard to get him to stick to this at first, as he doesn’t seem to know how to nap for a long time (although sometimes we’re lucky) and we’re trying various techniques.  I’m not going to write about these until we’re somewhat further down the line, as we’re in experimentation stage and I don’t know what is going to work yet.

Anyway, wish me luck, its going to be a hard few weeks (or maybe months)